Back to the basics, baby.

(Tuesday, October 28, 2008)

These few days have been a roller-coaster ride in terms of my emotions.

Firstly the HELIUM HIGH on sunday.
Celebrated my dear buddy's bday!
Ate at Aston's as usual, while teng and estelli went to prepare the pressie.
Turned out it was helium filled balloons!
All ten colourful ones with each of our wishes on it!
My balloon was a pretty yellowwwwww.
Camwhored with the bunch of balloons of course, but havent gotten the full set of pics from zhiwen.
Will upload it once I receive it, tgt along with the videos we took while swallowing in helium. :D
It was darnnnn fun! Voices changed dramatically to squeaky cartoon type, those with naturally higher pitch voices were worse, like Puixiao, Buddy and Elysia.
Bales of laughter that night.

These dew days have been meeting up with friends from so long ago.
A lil bit of nostalgia, a lil bit of reminiscence, a lil bit of fatigue.
I never really enjoyed my secondary skl life, due to my weird attitude then and my extremely close circle of frens.
And even now we have more or less drifted apart.
I always thought friendships then were so fake and awkward, with one not liking the other and all that crap.
Now that I've come to JC, I've learnt to relax and open up more with my current clique.
Yeah people all think I'm busy the whole day, but with what and who?
Just casual acquaintances passing through my life like a wind that blows and goes?
Then who would actually stay by my side through obstacles and be there for me no matter what happens?
No I'm not longing for a boyfriend to do that, I've long ago gave up on that thought.
But maybe just friends who I can really trust and depend on?
But there never seem to be friends like that; everyone's attention is too short-lived and dispersed among so many groups of their other friends.
Even though I find that fault in me as well, as many have said I don't reply their smses nor their calls nor take the initiative to contact them.
But what can I say, I'm just not an initiative type of person.

Eh omg this is turning out tp be a damn philosophical and emotional post about myself -.-
Shall sleep this mood off bye.


Seriously disappointed and frustrated with you.
You could never understand what I thought and felt, neither would you tell me yours.
So what's the point?
I'm determined to just forget about you.
If i ever contact you in future, may my hands just rot and I'll get run down by a lorry and die.
Wtf.